I awoke this morning with a glorious sun shinning through my curtains, calling me to rise. My heart still tender with a nights dream… yes she was there… and I witnessed the experience… held her hand in mine… felt so real… so fulfilling…
I arose charged with that feeling and wishing that I knew what to make of all the emotions that she stirs… even when in a dream.
It seems that the space between us only seems to be getting bigger and bigger and I can’t imagine what the use of all of these feelings may be. What am I to do, the accidental monk, with this passionate heart and all this love?
So I sat at my computer with my heart enlivened and thinking of how to make sense of it all.. yet hoping for a way, at least, to distract me from this stream of thoughts and questions that never have an answer.
There I was, with the sun shining through just above my screen… lovingly caressing my face and bringing me more and more reasons to smile.
I did my usual check of the latest emails… latest news and then I checked my newly minted twitter account. I have, as can be expected, a very small list of followers. Yet I had a message from a brand new one. She is a singer and though I cant recall having listened to her before, I have heard of her and even have her as a facebook friend.
In her message she thanked me for adding her and then she invited me to a free download from her new album. I was excited, “free” is the one price an accidental monk can afford. So I went to her site and clicked on the music page and there it was…
Here in Vlodrop we are in the midst of celebrating Vasantik Navaratri, which according to the Vedic calendar are the nine days of Mother Divine that are celebrated every spring. It is said that the “Nine lunar days of Mother Divine” awaken human awareness to the eternal continuum of infinite dynamism, which is the nature of Mother Divine. The nine lunar days of Mother Divine bestow wealth, prosperity, health, longevity, knowledge and intelligence…
Today they bestowed upon me a great blessing to my impassioned heart. With the sun shinning brightly upon my face and with my mind searching the internet for a distraction, Mother Divine offered me, through Valerie Janlois’ music a gentle caress… a nourishing joy…
The song she gifted me today answered the very question that I had awakened with, when I felt my heart so full of a love that seemed to be of no use… In the midst of sweet tabla and sitar music… a most enchanting voice sang to me… and said, “no drop of love, no matter what, is ever wasted…”
It was a long, cold winter, a deep silence… a time that seemed as though it would never end… with my heart hardened… hope abandoned… yet in the silence a light emerged and with it my heart and its passion, its love…
My heart, overflowing with love, tender with the outburst of emotions… longing to express itself… today is flowing out to her, as always… but it is also flowing out to you… flowing out to Valerie and is overjoyed in gratitude to Mother Divine.
It is that love which led me to write again… it is in every expression that comes to life on this page and it is in all the beauty that I see in the world. A world that is more beautiful with every moment that passes.
This love is in the bliss that is enlivened at the most unexpected moments and it is here in the Spring of my heart…
My dear, sweet accidental monk — your words fill me with so much joy. I have dedicated my entire adult life to teaching Transcendental Meditation, enlivening the world consciousness one student at a time and all the while having in my heart this tiny desire to share my music with others. When Nature gave me the opportunity to do so, I gratefully accepted, never really dreaming to evoke such a gorgeous, heartfelt and fulfilling response that you have given me. Thank you, from my whole heart. Jai Jai Guru Dev. Jai Jai Maharishi.
Valerie